Twenty-Five

I am twenty-five. One quarter. I have a husband who is still madly in love with me. I have the most fun little boy in the world. I have the most joyful daughter. I have talents. I have friends. I have incredible family, in-laws and blood. I have endless opportunity. I, amazingly, feel content. I have been able to look at my life lately, and despite the fact that life isn’t perfect, and the little stuff can be tedious and challenging, I feel a deep satisfaction. I feel like I am exactly where I want to be. I have a lot of need for growth, and I definitely want more; I always want more. But right here, right now, it is very good. I am blessed with more of what really matters in life, at twenty-five, than some people ever get to experience. I am grateful. Twenty-five is good.

Scrappy Sunday

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Grown Up Birthdays Suck Rocks

My birthday is on Monday. I am turning twenty-five. I think this means that I am officially an adult, and the reason I think that is because, officially, this birthday is going to suck rocks. From what I’ve been told, this is a common issue with grown up birthdays.

I tried to make it so this birthday would be fun. I talked Chris into taking leave so he would have my birthday off and we could go do something special. I have a good friend who says she’ll watch the kids for awhile that day. However, Chris just reassigned to the night shift, which will begin Monday night. This means that these last couple of days of leave are pretty much going to be Chris sleeping all day to adjust his sleep schedule. My birthday is the last day of leave. Now we should have four or five good evening hours, right? But Chris’ FCC training class got booted from Tuesday to Monday, so the few hours of consciousness he will have on my birthday will be spent in school. On top of this unfortunate scheduling, I’m fairly broke as well. The children have growth spurted AGAIN! And I’m trying to get ready for the holidays so I’ve bought a few small gifts ahead of time, and I’m now too broke to take myself on a shopping spree and buy myself the crazy pajamas I want. ( I know, I’m weird. I’m the kind of person who is thrilled to get stuff like pajamas and socks as gifts.) I could bake myself a cake, but that’s just pitiful, you know? Instead, I ate three cupcakes at a crop last night. At least I’ve had my frosting fix.

So my birthday. It will be just like every other day. I think I will still have my friend watch the rug rats in the morning and I will play in my scrapbooking room for awhile. That will be nice. And nice is ok. I can be content with nice and ok, because I’m a grown up. Right?

October In Pictures

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We took a little trip to the beach a few days ago- Maggie was totally unhibited- she ran right into the waves, got soaked and kept coming back for more.

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Jonas was playful as ever, pausing for just a second to see if the waves would get him.

As always, I am married to a wonderful man, and a loving father. I am very blessed.

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Maggie was the CUTEST witch ever for Halloween!

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Jonas went as a dragon; a very unphotogenic dragon, which is why this is the only shot. In all the others he looks like a purple blob.

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Maggie and Jonas each have their own special method of getting candy at Halloween. Jonas says trick or treat, takes his candy, and then while Maggie distracts the candy person by shaking her bag as if to say, “the candy goes here, lady” Jonas flitches a few more pieces. Or at least he did until I gave him the word.

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Jonas and Leah at the pumpkin patch.

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Maggie and Leah at the patch. We are big on pumpkin patches.

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Because you asked for it- a pie eating shot.

If you are wondering if you’ll see any of these scrapped, yes, yes indeedy do, you will. . .sometime this month.

She’s HIgh Again

A few days ago I had another serious allergic reaction. After hemming and hawing a bit over how to respond to my tightening throat (it was a slow tightening, not like last time which happened so quickly there was no thinking involved, only action) I finally decided that it was definitely getting worse and not better, so I called my friend Twila and asked her to take me to the ER.

I grabbed my epi pen, just in case, and we headed to the ER while I explained to Twila how to use this on me if worst came to worst. I walked right in upon arriving at the hospital, and the first thing they asked me was if I had an epi pen. I said “Yes, it’s right here.” They then asked me if I had used the epi pen, which I had not. They looked at me like I was crazy and proceeded to give me a shot of epinephrine, all the while telling me that really, it was ok to give myself the shot, it wasn’t all that bad. The thing was, I’m not all that squeamish about giving my own injection. (I’m not saying I want to, but I’m not stressed about it. I didn’t know if it was bad enough to warrant the use of the epi pen. The reaction wasn’t as scary as the time before; had it been, I would have given myself the shot immediately). Apparently, it was bad enough this time around too.

They gave me quite the cocktail of drugs, completely ignoring the fact that I had just warned them that I really am a featherweight on meds, and within a few minutes I began to react to the odd mix of benedryl, steroids, adrenalin and more adrenalin. I never knew that you could certifiably be both jittery and drowsy at the same time. I fought the urge to sleep as I watched my limbs, and even my stomach muscles (which, coincidentally, I didn’t know I had) uncontrollably jump jive and wail. It was like Parkinson’s meets narcolepsy.

Amazingly, after I’d been good and dosed up by a dr who thought I was reacting to shellfish (haven’t had shellfish in months) he went off shift, and the same doctor I saw last time came on duty, recognized me, and remembered that I said I was a wuss on drugs, and laughed at the doses I’d been given. He asked why I didn’t use the epi pen as he had instructed me last time, to which I could only respond, “ Do you remember how many drugs I was on when you gave me those instructions?” Seriously, I was lucky to have found my way home last time around. I was plastered.

I fell asleep for about an hour and a half, and woke up still jittery. I remained high and jittery for almost 24 hours after that. I was discharged, breathing quite well at about 2 am. Since there was no chance of sleeping, I called my sister in England at three am and talked so fast she had to tell me to slow down because I didn’t make sense. I cleaned the house, stealth cleaned the kid’s room while they slept, and when there was nothing left to clean, I did laps around my living room. About six hours later I crashed and ended up with the worst migraine I’ve had in years.

We have no idea what I reacted to. I have no way of avoiding this in the future. Allergy testing, here I come!

1st day of posting

obviously, not going well. we drove home from our little vacation and maggie has been screaming like mad. tomorrow will be better!